Beauty in Thy Eyen Two

i am aware that i am not ugly; in fact i am reasonably pretty if i make the effort to comb my hair, slap some makeup on and actually get out and act like a normal sociable human being. i'm not fat and i'm of average height, not terribly short or anything, and i don't have weird odors.

but i lack the "beautiful" attitude. i'm sure that even if i'm decked out in a fantastic donna karan creation and had a devastating sillouhette, had my face and hair done by shu uemura and frederick fekkai themselves respectively and wore ridiculous amounts of diamonds, nobody would give me a second look. i've a very quiet aura that makes me blend into the surroundings. my presence is of little impression.

some girls who arent blessed with half my looks, but with that "beautiful" attitude, can make heads turn just by walking into the room. what i mean by "beautiful" attitude is that they believe themselves to be beautiful and attractive, and that belief is so strong that others believe it too. they are marvelously confident, never mind they are at least 20 kg overweight, had dandruff or crooked teeth.

don't get me wrong, i'm not one of those poor saps with no self-esteem. in fact i'm very pleased with myself, and my mother is always saying that i must have a bruise on my back from patting myself so much. but i've very little faith in my appearance. i just take it as it is, average, not ugly, but not stunningly beautiful. it's not much to fall back on. i learnt that at a very young age, so i try to cover it up by acquiring many talents, literary, artistic and musical. i don't consider myself very smart, because my brother's golden wake leaves everything that's behind dull and stupid. but i think i'm better off than most, so i shouldn't complain too much.

of course, there's another race of women who are so beautiful that they aren't aware of it. it radiates out of them and captures the attention of all around them but themselves. my best friend is one such woman. i've always wondered how they coped with so much beauty.